Having chosen my pictures for my updated profile, the only thing left to do was log back in, change my pictures and wait for my "hundreds" of messages to flood my inbox.
Once I logged back in and changed my pictures, I reviewed my profile and made a couple of changes to make it a bit more current. Overall, I still felt it was short and to the point, and if stereotypes are to be believed, men don't read it anyway. They just look at your pictures and think "yep. I want to hit that." While I'm sure this does happen, I don't believe it to be true for all men. I also decided to pay for one month of "A-list" services for a few extra features to more closely follow what was done in the article that made me decide to try this.
As of 8:44 a.m., I was officially online dating again. The first thing I did was a search of my absolute ideal basic criteria: online within the last week so I know they are an active user, ages 35-48, lives within 25 miles of me, does not smoke or do drugs. Never or rarely drinks. Does not have nor want kids and likes dogs. In the Portland Metro area, this is all of nine men currently on Ok Cupid. Sigh...if I am going to meet my goal of messaging 25 men this week, I'm going to have to decide which of my criteria is least important to me.
I'm not sure if this is new since the last time I was on the site or if it's an A-list feature, but I can now see how many searches my profile came up in. Because online dating wasn't already depressing enough. For Day 1, I appeared in 1,251 searches. My profile was viewed a total of 30 times; I received a total of one message from someone who had messaged me previously and whose profile picture was so sleazy, I felt I needed to take an incredibly hot shower after looking at it. His message, which consisted of nothing more than "hi, my name is X" went into my filtered message folder as he does not fall into my search criteria of living near me. On my end, I sent messages to two of the nine men who matched my search criteria even though I didn't fit what they are looking for. Both read the messages; one replied. (One of the reasons I paid for the A-list membership was so I could see if messages I sent were read). Neither of them show up as having visited my profile, however.
I did have 17 "likes." I'm not sure if this is the result of men rating me highly but choosing not to message me or clicking "like" on Quickmatch, which only shows you a snapshot of the other person's profile and doesn't allow you to message the person unless you "like" them too, or both. I "liked" one of my Quickmatches; you can't see the next one unless you say yes or no to the current selection.
My goals for Day 2: go through the list of men who "liked" me and the Quickmatches chosen for me. Respond to the guy who did reply from Day 1. Email four of the nine men who remain on my list. Maybe change my username.
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Monday, April 20, 2015
PDX Metro Girl Documents HER Experience on Ok Cupid! for Seven Days
I have been on and off various online dating sites for about 5 years now. The amount of time I have spent on them has varied: at first, I realized I wasn't as ready to date as I thought I was following James's death and closed my accounts quickly. Then, I was just plain discouraged as I found online dating to be hard on the ego. Turns out you need a really thick skin to do it, and I don't have one that is thick enough.
My last stint on Ok Cupid! was about this time last year and it lasted for six months before it got too depressing and I disabled my account. From that experience, however, I did have my first (and only) date with a guy I "met" online (a guy with whom I initiated contact). So that in itself was progress.
I think part of the reason I've had short stints on the sites is because it doesn't feel like a natural way to meet someone - it doesn't feel like it's how I'm supposed to meet someone. I firmly believe you meet someone when you aren't looking and least expect it and online dating is definitely looking. So I've had the mindset it isn't going to work; being rejected by both Match.com and eHarmony the first time I tried them felt like a sign this isn't the right path for me. And my results would seem to support that theory in that I get very few profile views and even fewer messages.
But lately I've been thinking of giving Ok Cupid! another go despite the definition of insanity being doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. Then I read the series of articles by Thought Catalog contributor Chris Backley on his experience with Ok Cupid! where once again, popular theory is pointed out that if you are a woman, all you have to do is create a profile and you are flooded with messages. After reading the whole series of his week, I decided I'd reactivate my profile and document my own first seven days.
DAY ZERO:
I already have a profile created but since it didn't get me much action the last time around, I enlisted the help of four friends (two female, two male) to help me select my pictures. Three of them got back to me. All were in agreement on the same picture so clearly, that was the one I selected for my main picture. There was only one other in which two of my friends agreed so I used that one as well. Between the three of them, they chose 13 pictures. Feeling that was a bit overkill (and having Googled how many pictures was ideal), I narrowed it down to nine that I felt were a good representation of my life and met the core requirements of profile pictures: recent, show my activities and personality, show that I do get some exercise and I don't weigh 300 lbs, and of course, show a close up of my face so men can decide if I'm hot or not. After all, it's well known that pictures are key when it comes to online dating.
Stay tuned for Day One...
My last stint on Ok Cupid! was about this time last year and it lasted for six months before it got too depressing and I disabled my account. From that experience, however, I did have my first (and only) date with a guy I "met" online (a guy with whom I initiated contact). So that in itself was progress.
I think part of the reason I've had short stints on the sites is because it doesn't feel like a natural way to meet someone - it doesn't feel like it's how I'm supposed to meet someone. I firmly believe you meet someone when you aren't looking and least expect it and online dating is definitely looking. So I've had the mindset it isn't going to work; being rejected by both Match.com and eHarmony the first time I tried them felt like a sign this isn't the right path for me. And my results would seem to support that theory in that I get very few profile views and even fewer messages.
But lately I've been thinking of giving Ok Cupid! another go despite the definition of insanity being doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. Then I read the series of articles by Thought Catalog contributor Chris Backley on his experience with Ok Cupid! where once again, popular theory is pointed out that if you are a woman, all you have to do is create a profile and you are flooded with messages. After reading the whole series of his week, I decided I'd reactivate my profile and document my own first seven days.
DAY ZERO:
I already have a profile created but since it didn't get me much action the last time around, I enlisted the help of four friends (two female, two male) to help me select my pictures. Three of them got back to me. All were in agreement on the same picture so clearly, that was the one I selected for my main picture. There was only one other in which two of my friends agreed so I used that one as well. Between the three of them, they chose 13 pictures. Feeling that was a bit overkill (and having Googled how many pictures was ideal), I narrowed it down to nine that I felt were a good representation of my life and met the core requirements of profile pictures: recent, show my activities and personality, show that I do get some exercise and I don't weigh 300 lbs, and of course, show a close up of my face so men can decide if I'm hot or not. After all, it's well known that pictures are key when it comes to online dating.
Stay tuned for Day One...
Monday, March 30, 2015
Letting Go of a Lifeline
Not long after James died, I stumbled across the site ywbb.org-a site designed for young widows and widowers which had a message forum called "Chapter Two." Chapter Two was defined in different ways: for some, it was finding love again; for most, it was this new and foreign stage in our lives. This forum was great in that it was divided into sections: there was a general section, sections based on how long you'd been widowed, widowed with children, widowed without children, special circumstances, social, "widowbagos" (i.e. get togethers), etc. The best thing about this forum was it was available 24/7 and for the most part, the members there were accepting of "non-married widows" such as myself and other fiance(e)s.
YWBB quickly became a lifeline for me. It was the only place where there were others who understood exactly how I felt and what I was going through. It was where I could cry and have others cry with me or laugh and not have others think I wasn't grieving "properly." It is also how I found out about Meetup, which is what ultimately led to me starting my own group for young widows and widowers in this area. Mostly in those first months, I stayed in the newly widowed (0-6 months) section but from time to time, I'd venture to the other sections to get a feel for what I could expect down the road. I remember the first time I ventured into the social section and read about someone who was getting remarried-I started crying because I couldn't believe she'd do that to her late husband! Over time, the social section became my "home" and as I read the posts of those I'd gotten to know through the board announcing remarriages, I envisioned the day that post would finally come from me (and I'm still waiting...). I have not only "friended" several members of the board on Facebook, I even watched the wedding of one of them which was streamed live from the chapel in Vegas where the ceremony took place. I can honestly say that will likely be the only wedding I will ever "attend" in my PJs!
As time continued to pass, I found myself feeling less and less a part of the board and eventually I started posting less and less and then I realized I felt I'd outgrown the board and found a new (non-grief related) place to post. But I always knew the YWBB was there if I wanted or needed to go back to visit and whenever a new member joined my Meetup group, I directed them to the site. I don't know how many tens of thousands of people worldwide found this site to be a huge blessing.
On Friday, March 6th, exactly seven years and 1 month after James died, I found out via Facebook the site was being shut down. No reason was given but it was 12 years old and as I'm preparing to step down from organizing my Meetup group after 7 years, I can only imagine how the admins of the site feel after 12! I'm sure they are definitely ready to move on to whatever is next for them. I was at the beach with the dogs when I read the news and my first reaction was "No! You can't take away my lifeline! How do I fix this?!" But the next day, I started to think about how long it had been since I'd even checked in and I couldn't remember. What was being said on Facebook was that the site had become pretty dormant-of course, we all had to speculate on the reason for it's demise. The more I thought about it as I walked along the beach just enjoying the waves crashing on the shore with the two four-legged loves of my life was that I wasn't sad for myself that this was being taken away-though it is a little scary to know my safe place is gone-but rather I was sad for those who are still to come who will not benefit from this site that has been a lifeline for so many people over the past 12 years.
My understanding was the site was to be read only until March 20th and then it would just vanish from the Internet. I haven't looked it up to see that it's really gone-I'm allowing the memory of how the site looked to stay in my brain as a reminder it was once there. It would be too sad to get the error message the page I'm looking for doesn't exist even though I no longer need it to.
Good-bye, YWBB, and thank you for saving my life when I needed it the most.
YWBB quickly became a lifeline for me. It was the only place where there were others who understood exactly how I felt and what I was going through. It was where I could cry and have others cry with me or laugh and not have others think I wasn't grieving "properly." It is also how I found out about Meetup, which is what ultimately led to me starting my own group for young widows and widowers in this area. Mostly in those first months, I stayed in the newly widowed (0-6 months) section but from time to time, I'd venture to the other sections to get a feel for what I could expect down the road. I remember the first time I ventured into the social section and read about someone who was getting remarried-I started crying because I couldn't believe she'd do that to her late husband! Over time, the social section became my "home" and as I read the posts of those I'd gotten to know through the board announcing remarriages, I envisioned the day that post would finally come from me (and I'm still waiting...). I have not only "friended" several members of the board on Facebook, I even watched the wedding of one of them which was streamed live from the chapel in Vegas where the ceremony took place. I can honestly say that will likely be the only wedding I will ever "attend" in my PJs!
As time continued to pass, I found myself feeling less and less a part of the board and eventually I started posting less and less and then I realized I felt I'd outgrown the board and found a new (non-grief related) place to post. But I always knew the YWBB was there if I wanted or needed to go back to visit and whenever a new member joined my Meetup group, I directed them to the site. I don't know how many tens of thousands of people worldwide found this site to be a huge blessing.
On Friday, March 6th, exactly seven years and 1 month after James died, I found out via Facebook the site was being shut down. No reason was given but it was 12 years old and as I'm preparing to step down from organizing my Meetup group after 7 years, I can only imagine how the admins of the site feel after 12! I'm sure they are definitely ready to move on to whatever is next for them. I was at the beach with the dogs when I read the news and my first reaction was "No! You can't take away my lifeline! How do I fix this?!" But the next day, I started to think about how long it had been since I'd even checked in and I couldn't remember. What was being said on Facebook was that the site had become pretty dormant-of course, we all had to speculate on the reason for it's demise. The more I thought about it as I walked along the beach just enjoying the waves crashing on the shore with the two four-legged loves of my life was that I wasn't sad for myself that this was being taken away-though it is a little scary to know my safe place is gone-but rather I was sad for those who are still to come who will not benefit from this site that has been a lifeline for so many people over the past 12 years.
My understanding was the site was to be read only until March 20th and then it would just vanish from the Internet. I haven't looked it up to see that it's really gone-I'm allowing the memory of how the site looked to stay in my brain as a reminder it was once there. It would be too sad to get the error message the page I'm looking for doesn't exist even though I no longer need it to.
Good-bye, YWBB, and thank you for saving my life when I needed it the most.
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Seven Years
February 6th was the seventh anniversary of James's death. Seven years. I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around that. It doesn't feel like it's been that long but then other times it seems as though it's been much longer. Maybe it's more that I don't feel like I'm where I "should" be after seven years. People often tell me they wish I could see myself as they do and that they wish I could see how far I've come since James died. And I wish I could too. I think it would be quite helpful. Maybe one of these days I should try to list out what I've accomplished to help me try to pinpoint why I feel like I'm behind.
But then again, I never made a timeline after he died. In fact, I did the opposite. I stopped planning for the future because it's not guaranteed and I didn't want to be disappointed if I made all these grand plans only to have them yanked out from under me again. I think it drives my best friend nuts because he wants me to work on a life plan. Luckily for him, he doesn't understand that I HAD a life plan and why I'm reluctant to make another. He's still free to make a life plan for himself without hesitation. Without truly understanding it may not come true.
That's not to say there aren't things I want to do in my life, or that I've just been sitting around doing nothing. I've had a pretty busy go of it-especially the last 5 years. In fact, I'm to the point now where I love feeling like I'm one of the cool kids for the first time in my life but I need a timeout. I need to not have a social calendar that is always go, go, go. I need more downtime. A couple of years ago, I would have thought "but there's so much I'm going to miss out on if I slow down!" And now I've turned a corner and think "Eh, there will be other events like that." I'm finding that right now there are things I want to focus on just for me, without doing everything as a group. I love my friends, don't get me wrong - I am very blessed in that way - but I need to spread my own wings and see where it takes me. I need to continue to find comfort in my own skin.
I'm finding that is taking me to some interesting places and this year seems to be the year of "Don't think, just do." So far, that has me taking improv classes, participating in several photography challenges, planning to do a mini indoor triathlon and feeling excited about spending 4 days exploring Atlanta by myself. And it's only February...
I have other goals for this year as well that aren't quite so spontaneous - quite a few of them actually. I have a 3-ring binder that is divided into nine areas of life with my goals in those areas neatly typed out. As the month goes along, I write in my achievements. At the end of the month, I type them up and reprint the goals sheets. I tell myself this is so it looks nice and neat as time goes by. The truth is my handwriting sucks and I want to be able to read what I did in January come December. Plus, in January, I exceeded some of my goals and had to use some of February's space to record them. And I've already made a couple of revisions to the original list.
I call these goals but I guess it can be looked upon that this is my plan for 2015. (It's also pretty much the plan I had for 2013 and 2014; this year it's just more visible unlike 2013 where it was out of sight, out of mind and more protected than 2014 when my hard drive crashed in October and I lost my progress on my goals which furthered the tailspin I had already entered into. I also took dating out of the mix because why set myself up for failure for the third year in a row?).
Maybe I've turned more corners than I thought I have and have made more of a life plan mentally than I realize. My day planner does have a list of long-term plans on it- sort of a "bucket list" if you will. I just haven't gotten to the point of being able to write it all down yet. And maybe what's holding me back from doing that is there's still a part of me that's waiting to go back to February 6, 2008 and have the day end differently.
But then again, I never made a timeline after he died. In fact, I did the opposite. I stopped planning for the future because it's not guaranteed and I didn't want to be disappointed if I made all these grand plans only to have them yanked out from under me again. I think it drives my best friend nuts because he wants me to work on a life plan. Luckily for him, he doesn't understand that I HAD a life plan and why I'm reluctant to make another. He's still free to make a life plan for himself without hesitation. Without truly understanding it may not come true.
That's not to say there aren't things I want to do in my life, or that I've just been sitting around doing nothing. I've had a pretty busy go of it-especially the last 5 years. In fact, I'm to the point now where I love feeling like I'm one of the cool kids for the first time in my life but I need a timeout. I need to not have a social calendar that is always go, go, go. I need more downtime. A couple of years ago, I would have thought "but there's so much I'm going to miss out on if I slow down!" And now I've turned a corner and think "Eh, there will be other events like that." I'm finding that right now there are things I want to focus on just for me, without doing everything as a group. I love my friends, don't get me wrong - I am very blessed in that way - but I need to spread my own wings and see where it takes me. I need to continue to find comfort in my own skin.
I'm finding that is taking me to some interesting places and this year seems to be the year of "Don't think, just do." So far, that has me taking improv classes, participating in several photography challenges, planning to do a mini indoor triathlon and feeling excited about spending 4 days exploring Atlanta by myself. And it's only February...
I have other goals for this year as well that aren't quite so spontaneous - quite a few of them actually. I have a 3-ring binder that is divided into nine areas of life with my goals in those areas neatly typed out. As the month goes along, I write in my achievements. At the end of the month, I type them up and reprint the goals sheets. I tell myself this is so it looks nice and neat as time goes by. The truth is my handwriting sucks and I want to be able to read what I did in January come December. Plus, in January, I exceeded some of my goals and had to use some of February's space to record them. And I've already made a couple of revisions to the original list.
I call these goals but I guess it can be looked upon that this is my plan for 2015. (It's also pretty much the plan I had for 2013 and 2014; this year it's just more visible unlike 2013 where it was out of sight, out of mind and more protected than 2014 when my hard drive crashed in October and I lost my progress on my goals which furthered the tailspin I had already entered into. I also took dating out of the mix because why set myself up for failure for the third year in a row?).
Maybe I've turned more corners than I thought I have and have made more of a life plan mentally than I realize. My day planner does have a list of long-term plans on it- sort of a "bucket list" if you will. I just haven't gotten to the point of being able to write it all down yet. And maybe what's holding me back from doing that is there's still a part of me that's waiting to go back to February 6, 2008 and have the day end differently.
Friday, January 30, 2015
Uproar!
Over the years of being on Facebook, I've had friend requests from people I didn't recognize by name because they were using their married name which I didn't know and didn't also include their maiden name. I either figured out who they are from their pictures or profile information, deduced it from mutual friends or if I still couldn't figure it out, asked a mutual friend what name I would know this person as. I have also seen several friends change their name: either first and middle or if they are married (or divorced and still have his name), their maiden and married initials for a last name. I can think of 3 male friends off the top of my head who are currently not using their real last names so this isn't limited to just the women.
Everyone has their reasons for doing this. One of my guy friends mentioned above created his Facebook account around the time he was looking for a job. One just wants a low online profile. Some do it because they simply want to be harder to find. One of my widowed friends did it because she was having issues with her in-laws so she deleted her account and started over with a new name. Some, I think, just get bored and change it on a whim because they can.
I've never thought it was a big deal to change your name on Facebook, but apparently it is. I discovered this by changing mine. I then posted a picture as part of a daily challenge and immediately someone commented "Wow! You changed your name!" (I wanted to respond to that and ask what they thought about the picture). I had someone else tell me they almost deleted me because they were confused as to who I was. I have noticed someone who normally likes all my posts hasn't liked any since I changed my name. And the best (seriously-I'm not being sarcastic on this one) was a childhood friend I have known since we were 5 (actually, she was my first best friend) sending me a message to ask if everything is okay.
To be honest, I didn't think anyone would even notice and it does feel good that they did and that they want to make sure everything is okay. Although I do suspect one is hoping for some juicy drama. And here is the juicy drama leading to me changing my name:
I am now participating in several groups. In fact, that and messaging are pretty much the primary functions for which I am now using Facebook. (Totally just changed that sentence so I wouldn't end it in a preposition. Go me!). A few of these groups are literally worldwide. I don't know these people personally and I decided as I become more active in these groups, I wanted to be more anonymous with my personal information.
Scandalous, I know.
Everyone has their reasons for doing this. One of my guy friends mentioned above created his Facebook account around the time he was looking for a job. One just wants a low online profile. Some do it because they simply want to be harder to find. One of my widowed friends did it because she was having issues with her in-laws so she deleted her account and started over with a new name. Some, I think, just get bored and change it on a whim because they can.
I've never thought it was a big deal to change your name on Facebook, but apparently it is. I discovered this by changing mine. I then posted a picture as part of a daily challenge and immediately someone commented "Wow! You changed your name!" (I wanted to respond to that and ask what they thought about the picture). I had someone else tell me they almost deleted me because they were confused as to who I was. I have noticed someone who normally likes all my posts hasn't liked any since I changed my name. And the best (seriously-I'm not being sarcastic on this one) was a childhood friend I have known since we were 5 (actually, she was my first best friend) sending me a message to ask if everything is okay.
To be honest, I didn't think anyone would even notice and it does feel good that they did and that they want to make sure everything is okay. Although I do suspect one is hoping for some juicy drama. And here is the juicy drama leading to me changing my name:
I am now participating in several groups. In fact, that and messaging are pretty much the primary functions for which I am now using Facebook. (Totally just changed that sentence so I wouldn't end it in a preposition. Go me!). A few of these groups are literally worldwide. I don't know these people personally and I decided as I become more active in these groups, I wanted to be more anonymous with my personal information.
Scandalous, I know.
Monday, January 12, 2015
Thankful
Every year, I participate in the 30 Days of Gratitude on Facebook, in which I post one thing I'm grateful for every day for the month of November. This year, I didn't do it on Facebook, but rather kept track on a piece of paper which was hanging on my closet door. It's been hanging there ever since, until now, as I need the closet door space for a new challenge.
Here are the things I was grateful for in November 2014:
11/01: A roof over my head.
11/02: A job that pays the bills.
11/03: Not having to worry where my next meal is coming from.
11/04: Having reliable transportation.
11/05: Finally having someone listen when I really needed to talk.
11/06: Having compassion towards towards others.
11/07: Being able to reconnect with old friends.
11/08: The unconditional love of dogs.
11/09: A great turn out for a friend's baby shower.
11/10: Having had Dad in my life for almost 31 years.
11/11: The passage of time easing the hurt of losing loved ones.
11/12: Music.
11/13: Well wishes and check ups/check ins from friends (gum graft surgery).
11/14: Sick days with pay.
11/15: My best friend being here.
11/16: Knowing I want more out of my life.
11/17: Laughter.
11/18: Not having bat shit crazy relatives.
11/19: Being able to stay in touch via social media/technology.
11/20: Food Bank and trivia nights.
11/21: Not having to be anywhere on a dark and rainy night.
11/22: Having a bucket list to cross things off of.
11/23: Family-both biological and the one I created for myself.
11/24: Easy access to books.
11/25: Blessings in disguise. (Dentist appt being moved to Gresham meaning I didn't have to drive to Lloyd Center on the busiest day of the year).
11/26: Aloe infused socks and Benadryl.
11/27: Wanting to embrace the holidays again.
11/28: Weekend getaways.
11/29: Knowing that some times, it's okay to cry.
11/30: Not having to drive home (from Everett) in the snow.
Here are the things I was grateful for in November 2014:
11/01: A roof over my head.
11/02: A job that pays the bills.
11/03: Not having to worry where my next meal is coming from.
11/04: Having reliable transportation.
11/05: Finally having someone listen when I really needed to talk.
11/06: Having compassion towards towards others.
11/07: Being able to reconnect with old friends.
11/08: The unconditional love of dogs.
11/09: A great turn out for a friend's baby shower.
11/10: Having had Dad in my life for almost 31 years.
11/11: The passage of time easing the hurt of losing loved ones.
11/12: Music.
11/13: Well wishes and check ups/check ins from friends (gum graft surgery).
11/14: Sick days with pay.
11/15: My best friend being here.
11/16: Knowing I want more out of my life.
11/17: Laughter.
11/18: Not having bat shit crazy relatives.
11/19: Being able to stay in touch via social media/technology.
11/20: Food Bank and trivia nights.
11/21: Not having to be anywhere on a dark and rainy night.
11/22: Having a bucket list to cross things off of.
11/23: Family-both biological and the one I created for myself.
11/24: Easy access to books.
11/25: Blessings in disguise. (Dentist appt being moved to Gresham meaning I didn't have to drive to Lloyd Center on the busiest day of the year).
11/26: Aloe infused socks and Benadryl.
11/27: Wanting to embrace the holidays again.
11/28: Weekend getaways.
11/29: Knowing that some times, it's okay to cry.
11/30: Not having to drive home (from Everett) in the snow.
Monday, January 5, 2015
Inspiring Quotes for 2014
In the age of electronics, I use-gasp!-a paper day planner. Yep, that's correct. I write down my things to do, places to go and people to see. I find in doing it this way and having it sitting right in front of me on my desk, I'm less apt to double-book myself and I have an easier time remembering where I'm supposed to be, what I'm supposed to accomplish at work, etc if I write it down.
It is not one I went out and purchased. It is one I designed based off of one my best friend designed. I then printed it out and took it to Office Depot for binding. It was also a lot cheaper than going out and buying one and the most important thing is that it perfectly fits my needs since I designed it to do just that.
It is laid out a week at a time with Monday - Wednesday on one side, Thursday - Sunday on the other. It has sections for the focus of the day (usually work related), the top five tasks to complete at the office, the top five tasks to complete personally, hour increments for 8:00 a.m. - 10:00 p.m for Monday - Saturday, and blocks of time for Sunday, sections for short-term (30 day) goals and long-term goals. And it has a section for a weekly quote: something to reflect how I feel that week or what I want to focus on mentally.
Here is my list of quotes that got me through 2014:
Week 1: "I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes. If you're making mistakes, you're doing something." - Neil Gaiman
Week 2: "Thank God we can't tell the future. We'd never get out of bed!" - Tracy Letts, "August, Osage County" (If Meryl Streep does not get nominated for an Academy Award for this movie, then there is something SERIOUSLY wrong with that process! Holy cow-what a performance!!)
Week 3: "There's an important difference between giving up and letting go." - Jessica Hatchigan
Week 4: "Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don't. - Steve Maraboli, "Life, the Truth and Being Free"
Week 5: "The only reason you won't let go of what is making you sad is because it was the only thing making you happy." - krexy.com
Week 6: "Hope is a renewable option. If you run out of it at the end of the day, you get to start over in the morning." - Unknown
Week 7: "It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance." - Xiaoiu Guo (and Bette Midler, "The Rose")
Week 8: "Happiness is a delicate balance of what one wants and one has. It's an inner joy that can be sought and caught, but never taught and bought." - Unknown
Week 9: "Stop leaving and you will arrive. Stop searching and you will see. Stop running away and you will be found." - Unknown
Week 10: "Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy." - Unknown
Week 11: "Never give up on something you really want. It's difficult to wait but more difficult to regret." - Unknown
Week 12: "The energy it takes to hold on to the past is holding you back from a new life." - Mary Manin Morrissey
Week 13: " If you're dreams don't scare you, they aren't big enough." - Unknown
Week 14: "And through the rise and falling apart, we discover who we are." - Lifehouse, "Who We Are"
Week 15: "Life is like a camera...Focus on what's important, capture the good times, develop from the negatives, and if things don't work out, take another shot." - Unknown
Week 16: "You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And you are the one who'll decide where to go." - Dr. Seuss, "Oh, The Places You'll Go"
Week 17: "The best journeys in life are those that answer questions you never thought to ask." - Rick Ridgeway
Week 18: "Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end." - Unknown
Week 19: "What a wonderful thought that some of the best days of our lives haven't happened yet." - Unknown
Week 20: "Sometimes your only available transportation is a leap of faith. - Margaret Shepard And, "Forget all the reasons it won't work and believe the one reason why it will." - Unknown
Week 21: "Two things define you: your patience when you have nothing and your attitude when you have everything." - Unknown
Week 22: "You are far too smart to be the only thing standing in your way." - Unknown
Week 23: "Sometimes we have to lose something precious to gain something priceless." - Unknown
Week 24: "Life is like a book: some chapters are sad, some are happy and some are exciting, but if you never turn the page, you will never know what the next chapter has in store for you." - Unknown
Week 25: "The best feeling comes when you realize you're perfectly happy without the people you thought you needed the most." - Unknown
Week 26: "Nothing lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the bullshit, take chances and never have regrets because at one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted." - Unknown
Week 27: "Nothing ever goes away until it has taught us what we need to know." - Pema Chodron
Week 28: "How do you look at someone you love and tell yourself it's time to walk away?" - Unknown
Week 29: "Just because something isn't happening for you right now doesn't mean that it will never happen." - Unknown
Week 30: "There are all kinds of love in this world but never the same love twice." - F. Scott Fitzgerald
Week 31: "I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere in the world. Then I ask myself the same question." - Unknown
Week 32: "We are all created with equal amounts of awesome. It's up to you to decide how much of it the world gets to see." - Unknown
Week 33: "I admit I really miss how things used to be. But I can also admit that I've accepted the fact that things changed." - Unknown
Week 34: "All I need is time. Time to figure out who I am, who I want to be and where I want to go." - Unknown
Week 35: "What's meant to be will always find a way. She's going to marry that boy one day." - Trisha Yearwood, "She's in Love with the Boy."
Week 36: "I wonder what the person I'm going to marry is doing right now?" - Unknown
Week 37: "Life is an adventure. I can only wonder what treasure awaits at the top of the path." - Jonathan Lockwood Huie
Week 38: "The world is a book and those who don't travel read only a page." - Unknown
Week 39: "We travel not to escape life, but for life not to escape us." - Unknown
Week 40: "If you correct your mind, the rest of your life will fall into place." -Lao Tzu
Week 41: "The only thing keeping you from being happy is the belief you are alone." - Anna Draper, "Mad Men"
Week 42: "Don't look back. If Cinderella had gone back for her shoe, she wouldn't have become a princess." - Unknown
Week 43: "You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it." - Unknown
Week 44: "Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about." - Unknown
Week 45: "Let your faith be bigger than your fear." - Unknown
Week 46: "If you live in fear of the future because of what happened in your past, you'll end up losing what you have in the present." - Unknown
Week 47: "Your mind knows only some things. Your inner voice, your instinct knows everything. If you listen to what you know instinctively, it will always lead you down the right path." - Henry "the Fonz" Winkler
Week 48: "Every girl needs a best friend to help her laugh when she thinks she'll never smile again." - Unknown
Week 49: "Someday everything will make perfect sense. So, for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason." - Unknown
Week 50: "You don't have to have it all figured out to move forward." - Unknown
Week 51: "I am spending Christmas with family: the family I chose for myself." - Me
Week 52: "I am an idealist. I don't know where I'm going, but I'm on the way." - Unknown
(Those marked as Unknown did not have an author attributed to them on the site(s) I found the quotes, which was usually Google Images of whatever theme I was feeling that day, and I'm too lazy to look them up).
It is not one I went out and purchased. It is one I designed based off of one my best friend designed. I then printed it out and took it to Office Depot for binding. It was also a lot cheaper than going out and buying one and the most important thing is that it perfectly fits my needs since I designed it to do just that.
It is laid out a week at a time with Monday - Wednesday on one side, Thursday - Sunday on the other. It has sections for the focus of the day (usually work related), the top five tasks to complete at the office, the top five tasks to complete personally, hour increments for 8:00 a.m. - 10:00 p.m for Monday - Saturday, and blocks of time for Sunday, sections for short-term (30 day) goals and long-term goals. And it has a section for a weekly quote: something to reflect how I feel that week or what I want to focus on mentally.
Here is my list of quotes that got me through 2014:
Week 1: "I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes. If you're making mistakes, you're doing something." - Neil Gaiman
Week 2: "Thank God we can't tell the future. We'd never get out of bed!" - Tracy Letts, "August, Osage County" (If Meryl Streep does not get nominated for an Academy Award for this movie, then there is something SERIOUSLY wrong with that process! Holy cow-what a performance!!)
Week 3: "There's an important difference between giving up and letting go." - Jessica Hatchigan
Week 4: "Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don't. - Steve Maraboli, "Life, the Truth and Being Free"
Week 5: "The only reason you won't let go of what is making you sad is because it was the only thing making you happy." - krexy.com
Week 6: "Hope is a renewable option. If you run out of it at the end of the day, you get to start over in the morning." - Unknown
Week 7: "It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance." - Xiaoiu Guo (and Bette Midler, "The Rose")
Week 8: "Happiness is a delicate balance of what one wants and one has. It's an inner joy that can be sought and caught, but never taught and bought." - Unknown
Week 9: "Stop leaving and you will arrive. Stop searching and you will see. Stop running away and you will be found." - Unknown
Week 10: "Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy." - Unknown
Week 11: "Never give up on something you really want. It's difficult to wait but more difficult to regret." - Unknown
Week 12: "The energy it takes to hold on to the past is holding you back from a new life." - Mary Manin Morrissey
Week 13: " If you're dreams don't scare you, they aren't big enough." - Unknown
Week 14: "And through the rise and falling apart, we discover who we are." - Lifehouse, "Who We Are"
Week 15: "Life is like a camera...Focus on what's important, capture the good times, develop from the negatives, and if things don't work out, take another shot." - Unknown
Week 16: "You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. And you are the one who'll decide where to go." - Dr. Seuss, "Oh, The Places You'll Go"
Week 17: "The best journeys in life are those that answer questions you never thought to ask." - Rick Ridgeway
Week 18: "Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end." - Unknown
Week 19: "What a wonderful thought that some of the best days of our lives haven't happened yet." - Unknown
Week 20: "Sometimes your only available transportation is a leap of faith. - Margaret Shepard And, "Forget all the reasons it won't work and believe the one reason why it will." - Unknown
Week 21: "Two things define you: your patience when you have nothing and your attitude when you have everything." - Unknown
Week 22: "You are far too smart to be the only thing standing in your way." - Unknown
Week 23: "Sometimes we have to lose something precious to gain something priceless." - Unknown
Week 24: "Life is like a book: some chapters are sad, some are happy and some are exciting, but if you never turn the page, you will never know what the next chapter has in store for you." - Unknown
Week 25: "The best feeling comes when you realize you're perfectly happy without the people you thought you needed the most." - Unknown
Week 26: "Nothing lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the bullshit, take chances and never have regrets because at one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted." - Unknown
Week 27: "Nothing ever goes away until it has taught us what we need to know." - Pema Chodron
Week 28: "How do you look at someone you love and tell yourself it's time to walk away?" - Unknown
Week 29: "Just because something isn't happening for you right now doesn't mean that it will never happen." - Unknown
Week 30: "There are all kinds of love in this world but never the same love twice." - F. Scott Fitzgerald
Week 31: "I always wonder why birds stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere in the world. Then I ask myself the same question." - Unknown
Week 32: "We are all created with equal amounts of awesome. It's up to you to decide how much of it the world gets to see." - Unknown
Week 33: "I admit I really miss how things used to be. But I can also admit that I've accepted the fact that things changed." - Unknown
Week 34: "All I need is time. Time to figure out who I am, who I want to be and where I want to go." - Unknown
Week 35: "What's meant to be will always find a way. She's going to marry that boy one day." - Trisha Yearwood, "She's in Love with the Boy."
Week 36: "I wonder what the person I'm going to marry is doing right now?" - Unknown
Week 37: "Life is an adventure. I can only wonder what treasure awaits at the top of the path." - Jonathan Lockwood Huie
Week 38: "The world is a book and those who don't travel read only a page." - Unknown
Week 39: "We travel not to escape life, but for life not to escape us." - Unknown
Week 40: "If you correct your mind, the rest of your life will fall into place." -Lao Tzu
Week 41: "The only thing keeping you from being happy is the belief you are alone." - Anna Draper, "Mad Men"
Week 42: "Don't look back. If Cinderella had gone back for her shoe, she wouldn't have become a princess." - Unknown
Week 43: "You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it." - Unknown
Week 44: "Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about." - Unknown
Week 45: "Let your faith be bigger than your fear." - Unknown
Week 46: "If you live in fear of the future because of what happened in your past, you'll end up losing what you have in the present." - Unknown
Week 47: "Your mind knows only some things. Your inner voice, your instinct knows everything. If you listen to what you know instinctively, it will always lead you down the right path." - Henry "the Fonz" Winkler
Week 48: "Every girl needs a best friend to help her laugh when she thinks she'll never smile again." - Unknown
Week 49: "Someday everything will make perfect sense. So, for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason." - Unknown
Week 50: "You don't have to have it all figured out to move forward." - Unknown
Week 51: "I am spending Christmas with family: the family I chose for myself." - Me
Week 52: "I am an idealist. I don't know where I'm going, but I'm on the way." - Unknown
(Those marked as Unknown did not have an author attributed to them on the site(s) I found the quotes, which was usually Google Images of whatever theme I was feeling that day, and I'm too lazy to look them up).
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