I don't really have a whole lot to say today. After staying up past 11:00 Wednesday night for bunco (I was the big winner-yea me!), and then again last night to watch Grey's Anatomy (all I am going to say on that is WOW), I am pretty tired. And this has been a pretty long week. I am pretty sure someone slipped in an extra day or two when I wasn't looking.
I am still feeling more down in the dumps than I would like to and I am hoping that is in part because of the American Heart Association walk tomorrow. I am hoping this lingering lull is in anticipation of walking for James with the knowledge that I wouldn't be doing this if he was still here. If he was still here, I would be volunteering for my favorite non-profit tomorrow instead. I keep thinking back to last year when I did this same walk three months after he died and how my friend got sick and I had to do it alone. And this year, my friend had a prior commitment so again, I am doing it alone and I wish someone was going to be there to (figuratively) hold my hand. This current downward spiral seemed to really bottom out when I signed up for the walk, which was two days after donating the majority of his clothes.
On a positive note, I have raised $380 for the AHA. With the economy as bad as it is, I hated to ask for donations but heart disease kills far too many people. And once again, I have been reminded of how truly blessed I am by the wonderful people I am honored to call my family and friends.